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Friday, April 13, 2007
-8:06 PM
i've been thinking about my behaviour and how i carry myself, as well as the relationships around me, and it struck me that i'm turning too shallow and materialistic. i think i'm starting to indulge in worldly idle conversations which bring no gain and i'm too easily turned off by small issues, although i still maintain that i do get angry over most matters not worth getting angry of. I was thinking about this afternoon, if i was too childish and mean towards my best friend in the stadium. just over a small matter. which of i do feel rather guilty about now. and my moodswings are common and ever so predictably unpredictable. it makes me rather depressed come to think about it. about my current moodswings and childishness and shallowness and pettiness, that is. i hate this part of my life. where i lack maturity or drop one level down in it. i feel like what i was back then in my kiddish-gossipy years. it seems so easy to change for the worse than for the better overnight. sigh.
